My son is very sick, both ears infected, high fever, lot of congestion.

In yet another fucking chapter of the life that is mine that seems to be going down the toilet.

I have to go to the courts tomorrow to file a stalking restraining order.

I cant remember whether I have mentioned, the delivery guys ex girlfriend thinks its all my fault that they split up.

I swear to you guys, I am not!!

I know I fuck around playing the flirty tart...and well... I am...but I am a harmless flirty tart. I am not into him at all and would never lead him on like that.

They split up because she is really disrespectful and abusive and manipulative.

I mean, she came into work 2 months ago and took a swing at him! I know he is not faultless, but I am tired of her shitty txt messages and now I am getting them from friends of hers and she is badmouthing me around town.

I am so fucking over everything.

Aww sheesh, ducks. She sounds a little Fatal Attractiony. Don't you wish we could eradicate crazy beeatches and bass-turds?

Hang in there! :)

I think I have swimmer's ear.

I am a total fuckin idiot.

I was supposed to start my 10 week training program this week for LHF race, not next week like I thought. WTF??? !0 years of running has apparently shaken a few connections loose in the ole' brain box.

I'm working away on my little excel sheet, plugging dates in, going backwards from the day of the race. I look at the start date, then look at my deskblottter. Back to my computer. "FUCK!".

I am such an idiot.

I've done NO running this month. For some reason I thought I was supposed to start next week. Crap.

Lymphoma is bothering me.

Very sorry to hear that - I am assuming this is what is wrong with your spouse?

Yeah- he went to the doctor this morning and came by work. The doctor said it's probably lymphoma (he can already tell but can't hand that diagnosis without the bloodwork)- we're going to the specialist next week.
Feels like a death sentence.
I'm still at work. It's hard to design shit when your hands are shaking wildly. I'm going to take off early.

I'm so sorry. Try to be positive.

You guys can start calling me "sunshine" if you want.

Take all the positive energy we are sending you Cicero, and share it with your husband. Good luck to you both, and don't forget we're here for you!

God Cicero, how worried you must be. Like LabRat said, we're here for you.

Sorry to hear that, Cicero. Let us know how things are going.

Home for my lunch break...
Working the return desk today
Been yelled at already for about 10 things I didn't have anything to do with
Sadly, not even by customers
Almost cried twice so far
When I get back, it's only 3 1/2 more hours...right?

take heart ~

aww. :neutral:

Razz, that sucks. Is work often like that? It's horrible when work makes you miserable; we spend such a large portion of our lives in our workplace.

Retail is like that, it's rather soul-crushing. If the customers don't hate you for something you have no control over...then your managers are mad at you for something someone else did...and the employees are all talking about something you didn't do. I'm just dealing until I can find something better....that's how life works.

Well......found out a few hours again that one of my very good friends and teammate died of a heart attack (supposedly genetic) earlier today. He was 19, athletic (not fat), straight A student with a 34 ACT, etc. Damn...

I was high at the time which just made it ten times worse because you're really sad and really happy at the same time and it just splits you apart.

I am really sorry to hear that.

i recently launched my business and most of my clients (at least the ones i've invited) have followed me over from the old firm. but i got a call today from one client, who happens to be an old friend, that pissed me off. he and the mrs are staying at the old firm "because firm______has made us a lot of money and has taken good care of us."

are you freaking kiddin' me? the firm doesn't even know you exist. THE ADVISOR did the work fixing some serious problems and setting up a good plan and walking you through estate planning, etc... THE FIRM is going to fill my vacated office with some kid that is literally two weeks out of licensing and not even able to advise independently yet.

Whatever. I actually don't mind losing them as clients because they are pretty high maintenance/low return clients anyway. it's just the principle.

l123, you're pissed off because you got a free dose of honesty, revealing your good fortune at dodging a high maint/low retn luuuuuser?

time to recalibrate, bro.

Pierce, that's awful. It's never an easy thing to lose a friend, but it's less unexpected as you get older, I think, as you hit 'the zone'. Must have been terribly shocking to lose a friend so young. My condolences.

yeah, i know. don't know why it irritates me either. i think i'm probably more irritated that in a month they'll sit down with the new guy who will dismantle the accounts to reshuffle money into something he was taught in a class - and charging them a few thousand.

Thanks rkzenrage and Dana. Actually, I think what scares me the most is how he died, not the actual fact that he died, which still does scare me. From from I've heard, he just had a heart attack out of nowhere with no prior warnings.

Sad thing is that I might not be able to make the funeral since it is a state away.

Sorry ph, that is pretty depressing stuff.

Sorry to hear it too PH.

It happened to the brother of a close friend of mine. We were 23 and he was 21 - the pathos is he'd been drifting for a couple of years and had finally got his life sorted and had a place at Uni in the Autumn. It seems odd to remember, but it was the 50th anniversary of VE Day - unusually warm for May and everyone was celebrating. He was playing a game of kickabout on the village green. Dead before he hit the ground.

The thing I will always carry with me is my friend singing and playing a song at his little brother's funeral, and how brave and old-world courteous his Dad was, thanking everyone individually afterwards, especially the friends.

This is kinda small potatoes in comparison, but a rabbit is staring at me through the screen door. An hour or so ago I accidentally crushed the rear legs of one with the tractor... eyes filled with terror dragging himself around with his front legs... everything zen?

Wait, the rabbit you smashed is the one staring at you? Might be zombie rabbit. If not, you may have made some serious enemies in the Bunny Kingdom, my friend.

We will travel in pairs for a while. Two go out one comes back.

another night of the lepus?
 

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We posted simultaneously! Go back a page for mine! ;)

Eerie.

Don't be the one wearing the red shirt.

funny!

"bummer of a birghmark, hal"

Supremely crappy ass weekend. Have to call the doctor tomorrow about some very worrisome things. We'll see, I guess.

eek. all the best with that....

i started college last week and i still have no friends.

laaaaammmme.

PoL, that isn't lame. It isn't aways an immediate thing when you first go to college. Are you living on campus?

Yes I'm living on campus. It's a really hard transition. It's hard to just put yourself out there and meet people...mainly because I'm pretty shy.

Y'know PoL, that's the experience of a lot of students when they first go to college. Probably more students find that first transition hard than don't.

Whenever you hear tales of college life it seems like one big party and big gangs of mates. But that takes time, and for most kids the first few weeks are a serious adjustment. It's harder to relax and make friends if you aren't even on familiar ground: but the unfamiliar becomes the familiar pretty quickly.

Your classes and any extra-curricular stuff you get involved in will bring you into contact with people and at some point you'll find you've slipped into a group with a bunch of others.

But don't give yourself a hard time over it. There's nothing lame about it at all, you're doing something that most people would find daunting.

Yeah your probably right. It's hard going from high school where you are really close with a few people and you feel comfortable with those people and then suddenly they just move away and you have to make completely new friends.
You're right though, I just need to give it some time.
Thanks for the advice, I appreciate it.

Points, just try to talk to as many people as possible. If there is someone sitting next to you in class, strike up a conversation. Nine times out of ten nothing will happen but there is a very good possibility you that your new really good friends will be people you just randomly meet.

I was very shy in high school and can still be when I'm in a depressed mood. Just practice with conversation skills and watch what other charismatic people do and try to copy that, within reason. It is much easier to make friends if you show confidence and don't talk in a monotone voice. It will take a while but it helps a lot.

Dana is right too, it took me until late March my freshman year to find a group of people that I really connected with. I met them by being dragged to a party by my roommate who I hated and meeting someone I met randomly earlier that year and met his friends who needed a bassist for a band and we've been friends since.

That's easy for you extroverts to say!!!

Anyway.. what's upsetting me? I've lost a filling. The tooth hurts like hell. It appears I'm going to have to see a dentist. (I was hoping nuclear war, or bird flu, or a helpful public transit bus would take care of me before it became necessary.)

What makes you think I'm an extrovert?

Forcing myself to talk to someone or go to a social gathering is what helped give me confidence.

Oh. Look. More abnormal test results, completely unrelated to the others. Delightful.

Apparently two specialists wasn't enough. I will now be seeing a perinatal specialist, a neurologist, and an endocrinologist on a regular basis for the next 7 months, in addition to my standard OB visits.

I did an end-run on my OB though. He didn't feel qualified to minutely interpret the endocrinology lab results, so he insisted I go to a general practioner first, who would then tell me if I needed to be referred to an endocrinologist. Fuck that shit, dude, I'm not made of copays and free time. An endocrinologist is perfectly capable of telling me himself if things are mostly fine and just require monitoring.

So today will be appointment number three this week, plus another three already scheduled for next week. I swear to God, no one better try to put me on bedrest. That shit just can't happen.

Sorry Clod. Try not to focus too much on the bad stuff, you don't need to add stress to anything else that may or may not be going on.

sorry, chica. we're here to vent to.

If they do, may I offer my bed?

give it a rest, bruce.

Clod - hope all goes well.

I'm trying to... bed rest.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

Best wishes Clod.

I burned my tongue and I can't find my pass for the sport center

Saturday night I made a bed in the bathroom and spent the night, and half of Sunday, in the three-foot space between the wall and the toilet.

My stomach is still not quite right.

Yuck. Sorry, HLJ.

Awwww....are you ok honey?

No. I need a nurse. Real bad.

Can I take your temp the ole fashioned way????? Can I?