Kinda pisses me off that right now..in this moment.. I don't really have anything that upsets me. Imagine that.

And by the way.... I'll have an O, Bob. A big O.

Update on post 4020. Still stressing. I have an opportunity that I'm pursuing even though it has me twisted.

I have the ability to sell my practice to an associate. The company name and all assets save for a handful of accounts go with the sale. With the proceeds I can be debt free except for house and one car. That's the same as before except I've been contacted by a friend at my old firm. One of their bigger producers in the area left and they need an experienced guy with my particular skill set to go in and save the office... right now. I would be selling my existing practice and taking only a few of my clients over to my old company AND I'd receive an incentive package and a whole new practice from my old firm.

It screams win win win all the way around, but it still has my stomach in knots.

As you know, in your business, no one ever got ahead without taking risk. Of course you have people doing that around you all the time and maybe it is your job to help them do it, so you may not be so good at it yourself. (assumption)

I say go for it. Sell the practice, take the new job, pay off the debts, and start with a clean slate. Few ever have that opportunity. Worst case is you will have to start again. But you have done that once and when you did it before you probably had more debt. This time you will have little. Nothing good in life comes easy. Good luck. Let us know what you do.

Not upsetting so much as occasionally popping into my head: my graduation ceremony is next month. I so wanted to graduate whilst Dad was still here to see it. He'd have loved it, I know. I made him wait an awfully long time to be proud of me. After the troubled years of teens and twenties. I really wanted him to see it.

I'm sure he was proud of you every step of the way, Dana.

A former co-worker committed suicide this morning at a local park.

He had been arrested for embezzling from my employer last fall. I feel badly for his wife and three children, his son and my son were friends as they both worked as temps/interns for my employer.

Why do people choose this route to 'solve' their problems?

This is not a dig on your friend. But a number of my kids friends have committed suicide. I have always told them that it is a cowards way out of ones problems unless you are terminally ill. I hold that opinion to this day.

Well if you told them before they killed themselves, it wasn't convincing, and if you told them after, they weren't listening.

Sometimes people just don't see a way through. Also, depression can do funny things to your thinking. A lot of people who attempt/commit suicide believe that they are releiving their loved ones of a burden.

I don't think it's a cowards way out. It's a very scary thing to try and take your own life. The moment of truth takes a kind of courage. Misguided and tragic, but a kind of courage nonetheless.

Dana, I'm sure your dad was proud of you every step of the way. I found myself suddenly crying the other day, when it hit me that my grandmother would've loved to see me graduate last month. Though she wasn't around to see the culmination of all my hard work, she saw the path I was on and I bet she was happy to see where I was headed. I imagine your dad felt similarly, though that knowledge doesn't quite remove the sting of his absence.

ETA: Missed Shawnee's response because I wanted to reply too quickly. Oops! Sentiment remains the same although the words have already been said. (Great minds, eh?)

*smiles* thanks. I am so glad he got to see me win the second year history prize. That helps. And I bet your Gran was really proud of where you were headed, chika.

Dang kids these days...

For the second night in a row, my seemingly simple veggie side has come out completely inedible. I had backups, S.O.P. when trying new recipes, so no one went hungry, but still. Failure irritates the crap out of me.

Ach. That's frustrating Clod. A new day a new meal eh?

Missed this thread.
Hey Dana - I think he was there, you just couldn't see him. He is proud of you, you just can't hear him tell you. Just my :2cents: (cuz that's what I believe about my daddy)