stadium buttpads. Jus' sayin'. the thin ones. we always have them in the car....

Or wear a heavy coat, fold it and sit on it. ;)

Doctors who who don't share any detailed info about my cancer, and instead just toss me on the auto cancer chemo treatment assemble belt, like thousand of others...cuz hey, theyknow better or cuz of easy money.

I'm in a fucking anxiety ridden pickle.

So sorry to hear that. Have you looked into alternate options? Are there other docs you could talk with? Have you gotten a 2nd opinion? :(

I'm sorry to hear that, too, Pico. :( As Classic said, are there other doctors you can talk to?

:( maybe follow their advice anyway :(

and i am so sorry. it is very wrong for me to say that, because i cannot possibly know from where i sit, but i only hope for the very best for you.

i've told the story before, of my friend that didn't follow their advice and is now in a much worse position. only the chemo has saved her so far. a quack in argentina tried to sell her that chemo is what kills people. she'd be dead right now if she had $17,000 for that quack.

she was scared making herself sick when she had that first dose but when the nurses figured out what was up, they wrote on her chart to make sure patient is pretreated with ativan and everything was fine after that.

so far so good for my friend facing terrible odds. 15 rounds and the tumors were not visible on scans. she still faces terrible problems but her hair is growing back and she's still alive. and she still faces terrible odds and i hope for better odds for you.

Fuck cancer.

Sorry, Pico. The whole mess is terrifying and frustrating.

It makes me angry, I'm sorry to hear about your experience, Pico.

I'm sorry Pico, communication with some docs just isn't going to happen.

Fuck cancer.

Yeah, and thanks everyone for commiserating.

I never thought cancer or dying young was in the cards for me. Both my grandmothers died in their late 90's and so far my Mom and Dad are in theirs 80's and going strong. I really don't think about the dying part a lot, but when I do, its more about the practical side. And, if I have only so long to live, I want to get some things off my bucket list...like traveling. So my main goal is quality of life. For that I need ALL THE INFO. I want to be in control of my destiny, not the doctors who don't know me or really care. I am worried that my doctors so far are just guessing. (from what i have been able to investigate online)

So, Undertoad, I mean to get the best care somehow, I don't plan on going all homeopathic or anything. If chemo is the trick, then so be it, but I want the RIGHT drugs. The hard part is figuring out how to get the best information. I do have a follow-up visit with my surgeon and I will be asking for hard copies of EVERYTHING they have on me. And also for recommendations for other oncologist. Im going to pick his brains.

OMG, just typing this out makes me feel better. Thanks for listening.

:thumbsup: go kick some ass!

:) Im trying.

Good for you ... and Pico. ;)