Ewww. And by ewww, I mean jesusfuckingchristnoway*majorshudders*

Eeeewwww .... I think that qualifies as upsetting!! I took the dare - that is one gigantic, horrid thing.

harmlessharmlessharmlesshaaaaaaaahhhhhgetitoffgetitoffgetitoff!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT
KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT
KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT OMFGKILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT
KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT
KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT KILLIT

I would scream like a Girl and flail about trying to get that big hairy fucker off me

INFI - DO NOT GOOGLE IT!

To my credit...it lives and breathes now. I flung it far enough to qualify for Olympic discus ...but it lives to torment again.

Ah Ducky, so hot even the spiders are trying to get in her pants. ;)

haha...a spider in the pants. Enough to spoil just about anyone's day! lol

Sorry...my lack of sympathy is astounding, but I am imagining the scene of the crime. lol It would have been funny.

I was gonna watch "The Daily Show" earlier, but when I browsed my personal channel list, Comedy Central wasn't there. I just checked Google News, and saw this.

Its ok, I wasnt really looking for sympathy.

In my typical fashion, I am very calm at the time of the incident, but I certainly shuddered and checked my pants every 5 minutes for a good few hours afterwards.

Today whats upsetting me is Jackson is feeling a bit under the weather, poor puppy.

I think the sandflies are giving him hell because he's scratched himself raw above his tail, he doesnt have fleas because he gets treated. I have wiped him over with some tea tree oil to deter the little bastards and put some Itch-Eeze on his sore bits...its Antiseptic and Anaesthetic. A bit of couch time with the wriggling 52kgs and hes a bit happier.

I was going to take him for a walk, but he will go in the salt water (which will be good for his sore), which will wash all the stuff off that I just put on him.

PLEASE DEAR GAWD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO NOT WALK OUT OF HERE TODAY. PLEASE!

I now return you to your regularly scheduled program.

You can do this. Let's get that resume shined up though. Leave on your schedule not theirs.

Thanks, Griff. That's what I keep telling myself.

And my cow orkers are wonderful. We're all feeling the same way, but that doesn't alleviate any of the crap, and my health is really suffering. I wish I could take these kinds of things in stride, and know that in the long run it's of little importance.

I think a lot of it is worrying I'd disappoint my family or make my mom and dad worry about what will become of me.

I know I keep going over and over this and I appreciate that I can vent here, but I just don't know how much longer I can hang on. Do I think the consultants are going to make a difference? I don't really know. I have a proposal on the direction I think this job should go, and what should be on my plate and what should not. I can't do any of it well because there's just too much. And I can't live with that nagging feeling that I'm doing a half-assed job at what I was hired to do. But they misrepresented this position, and I've never had a moment of job ownership or time to update, upgrade, fix processes, hone processes: the things I was hired to do, there is no time for.

So you're right, I need to get my resume updated and start looking. I'll most certainly have to take a pay cut, but I can't keep on going like this.

Infi, can you get a written commitment about when the consultant's report will be done, and implemented by?

If you have a job you like doing, are good at, and feel you are making the world a little better by doing, that is a valuable asset. I do regret quite a bit about losing/leaving my former job - but I don't miss the bullshit from the narcissistic middle-manager.