No, Sarge, I appreciate the clarification.

So there was some estranged family who showed up. They wanted 'things.' LIke he had a lot of 'things.' They don't plan on any funeral of any kind, saying they can't afford it...all the while this estranged sister asking about a life insurance policy he had some time ago (and he probably cashed in.) We plan to have our own memorial amongst us. WTF is wrong with people?

I thought about the 'go fund me' thing, monster. I don't know that Stan would have wanted that. WE would like to see a service, but the funeral is for the people left behind. It breaks my heart to think that there won't be that respect shown for a paratrooper in the Vietnam war. Yet, Stan being such a private person, maybe he would have appreciated OUR efforts even more.

My dear neighbor lady is elderly, and she took care of Stan and Stan's roommate and another neighbor guy, and they took care of her. She's also become a surrogate mom to me. They're all really good folks. She's hurting, more so about the lack of compassion from his so-called family, I can tell, but you don't make it to 78 years old without knowing pain. I hope I can be stronger too in the years ahead of me.

These are the reasons we cherish family, when so many don't know what it feels like. I don't know the backstories, don't care to because it's not my business. I know how people treat me, and others around them.

I'm gonna miss that silly funny guy. And we, as some weird sort of community, are going to celebrate that life.

Thanks for the venue to talk about this.

paratrooper? you need to get the parachute soldiers from the dollar store and use them as part of your tribute.

You would do the GoFundMe not as "pay for this guy's funeral" but for you lot.... "We really want to say goodbye to our friend as befits his awesomeness, nothing fancy but not a pauper's deal...."

In my 39 years of life, I have never seen my beloved home of St. Louis like this:

http://www.stltoday.com/news/local/c...a3d36a083.html

Sounds like a situation spinning right out of control.:(

Has to, or it'll get swept under the rug.

What's to be expected when the population includes fine, upstanding members of society like this young gentleman...

Someone who steals to survive, help them.
Someone who steals for a living, prosecute them.

Looters? Shoot 'em... and leave their body lay in the street until kin, or feral dogs, claim it.

I foutred le camp last Saturday. Things went to shit in in instant. How much fun working with angry drunks More details later. I'm back at home now.

Shit, sorry dude.

Rat fuck, foots, just rat fuck. :(

Sounds horrible. Sorry it was so bad you had to part ways.

You fucked off last Saturday?

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Welcome to my world.

In my appointment with the specialist nurse yesterday she dropped into conversation that the waiting time for detox/ rehab is 2-3 MONTHS not 2-3 weeks as I originally understood.

No surprise this hit me like Mohammed Ali, and being so knocked out I could not articulate well enough to even challenge it. Partly from shock - my stomach dropped in a fight or flight response - partly still trying to maintain the veneer of sanity but partly because of the sheer embarrassment of having misunderstood.

I then came home for a rotten afternoon of self-hating and assuming I was wrong. Then that I was crazy. Then that in fact I was right and this was all a test because so many things have been brought up in one meeting and then never referred to again/ not happened. I suppose the final stage was they think it's convenient to pretend with me because I pretend along.

How confident am I that I was told 2-3 weeks? 75%
How much do I believe there was a genuine misunderstanding on my part? 10%
How well do I think I am being supported currently? 5%

Once again, I was told I would get a text regarding how my application was progressing.
And this was from the nurse I first met back when I was in hospital, so that's back in July and I have seen her every week. The nurse I saw last week was a fill-in, so when she didn't follow through on her promise I thought it was just lack of care. It feels worse this time.

It just drags on and on and on.

Shit, Sundae. I'm sorry.

It's pretty ridiculous they make you wait for such important treatment.

I must have missed something. Why do you need rehab Sundae? I thought things were travelling fairly well.