Last nights meltdown...
 

First, I would like to thank Mr. Undertoad for putting up with me. As well as the community. I do not know where to start; as I have been pushed down so far. I did post my number. I did receive a call from CA and MD. My assistant took call. Sadly, he said one call only played music, the other did not talk. Usually Sarah helps me, but she was sick so her brother was with me for the night.

I will come clean. Yes, I was on that other site. However many of the posts I have writeen there have been severly edit by other posters as well as webmaster.

I do not post about politicaly things. Yes, I do have other neurological issues that I did speak of on that site, but I did not here.
I had a giant meltdown last night I will admit that.

I was upset. Big Sarge is proper in what he said. I do belong to the Gotham's Writer Club, BUT I am still me. I was mad because I lost a writing competition that many feel, including me, that I should have won. I did come in 2nd place from 800+ entries. The other girl that won knew I was better and was ashamed. I stormed out of the place and ran. That club does not deserve me. I deserve to be here.
As for Big Sarge. I know who he is. I offer peace...

always-
Pam.

What you are is a liar, drama queen and troll. Those are just the least of what you are.

A drama queen? Yes. A liar? No. A troll? I do not live under bridge...

Pam.

I'm not sure that breaking a promise is the same thing as lying. Lying is about deceit, and breaking a promise is more like not following through.

Thank you for your kind words. I made a mistake. My depression and emotions get me. But, I work on getting them better...

I am just so lost. Too many nights under the 'midnight sun.' Too much wine. At times, I am at a bar - and there is a music band playing there. I really can not hear the music that well. Sometimes I think that is best.

and later that night, I stumble home. I know people stare. I know what they think of me. But I do not care. But then when I wake up in the morning,...I do care.

thank you Mr. glatt,
Pam.

She promised she would do something and then she did not. That is a lie in my book. Plus she never ever intended what she said, another way it was a lie.

If the whole persona is a lie, well then.....

why are you taking it so personally, mort?

You should be thanking her for being the most interesting noob in ....oh...forever.

applause? holy awesome sock puppet?

...why take it so seriously.

At the time I made the statement. I did mean it. And now i regret it. I have stated that here. You seem very scorn. Perhaps some man lied to you??? I do not know.

But you are bitter I think. What is so troubling you in life? Perhaps I can help if you need to talke to someone.

Pam.

Oh what a tangled web we weave,
When first we practice to deceive.


I'm just telling the truth. Truth is not personal.

If you are a man, then yes, a man lied to me.
You made a statement you did not mean. That means you lied. I do not like liars, that does not mean I'm bitter. I'd pray to god before I came to you for help and I'm agnostic.

trusting in Jesus before pathetic pam,
MTP

yes, you are bitter. and i did not lie. a woman has the right to change her mind at any time. unless YOU are a man, you should know this...

Pam.

No women do not have the right to be liars. I am a woman and I know that. You want to put a bad face on females when we've been struggling for equality and to get rid of the negative stereotypes about us, and expect me to accept that? Nope. If I am bitter, it is because of things like you perpetuating a negative stereotype of my gender.

I am of the same gender obviously. You are bitter. I can tell. I know about these things... so just tell me why??? Maybe u should change your name to 'more than bitter,' ....no???

Happy,
Pam.

You are not "obviously" the same gender as me. I do not have to recognize scum like you is even human. I did tell you why you make me bitter, you're just too big of a idiot to grasp it. You know fucktwat and thats all.

Now I am getting upset! typical 'potty mouth' american girl from west united states! who can't satisfy her husband!

Pam!

I'm not dumb enough to be married dipshit.
I'm not the one who lets a man abuse me, physically or emotionally, neither do I abuse my men in such a way.

Perhaps, because no man will take u???

Pam.

I have been proposed to and I turned it down. I'm currently dating a guy who wants more from me than I want from him. I am desired by many men because I have a well rounded personality (just not ass well rounded as my ass ;)), something you are lacking. I'm not a pathetic empty brained fucktwat who needs a man to make me feel fulfilled or any way take care of me. I also don't need my parents to take care of me or send me money.

Can take care of myself,
MTP

I am glad you turned down the proposed. You saved that man a life of misery...

Pam.

Miserable people will have miserable lives no matter what. Maybe I should hook him up with you, then y'all could be miserable together? Misery loves company.

Matchmaking,
MTP

Its called a "proposal" idiot. You can't write. Thats why you lost a writing competition.

Bursting your bubble,
MTP

It's called a type, and being foreign. The goal of writing is to get interest... I have my writings proof read, but not always on here...

You are not an 'interesting' poster,...I suggest you retire...there is nobody talking about you...at ALL!

Pam.
WINNING.

We are talking about her. You just can't see the posts where we talk about MTP 'cause you don't have access to that forum yet. That section doesn't even show on the board menu until Undertoad gives you access.


It's where we share the really Not Safe For Work pictures. Not that vanilla shit in the public Dwellar NSFW thread.

MTP, me, SG, Brianna and Infi have a thread going there where we compare snatches (which is a Canadian slang word for vagina).

It's called Ho Compare (one for the Brits :p) and there's another one called ComparetheMerkindotcom (also for the Brits).

Maybe Undertoad will let you have access to that forum. I don't know though. You haven't been with us very long. It usually takes a good few weeks, or even months.

Are you talking to me?? Who are you speaking of?? What access do I not have?? If you are speaking of me, when will Mr. Undertoad give me access???

Pam.

Yeah...there's also the wang section where we regularly show off whose dick is longer.

I can't remember what i did to get acces, because I have been here for a lot of years and I was given access some time ago. I think maybe you have to request access? Yres, i think that was it. I sent Undertoad a PM asking him for access to the Secret Forum.

I think that's my favourite thread in the whole Secret Forum.

Was so surprised when Draxxie won! Who'd have thunk it?

Ok, since we are speaking of 'vagina,' I have a confession to make... and hopefully if I make it through 'training' here, Mr. Undertaod will grant me permission. Can you ask of my be-half?? My confession is that I do not shave my 'cooter.' I am not religeouss, but if 'god' gave me hair there, should I not have it there?? Of course I shave other areas at times. But I like being 'natural.' Is that wrong of me?? American women get expressive over 'waxing' their hair I do not. Is that -am I , normal??

Pam.

I dunno. I let mine grow long and then plait it.


So far though, I think the best 'snatch shot' has to be Sundae's That pink hair dye makes her look very striking.
I can't ask Undertoad for you I'm afraid. It has to be the person seeking access that requests it. It's somewhere in the rules I think. No, wait, sorry. I think the rules have been rewtritten. It definately used to be in the old rules though.

Bad writing is not a 'type,' you came here at 11, assuming you are at least 18, then you've had 7 years to learn the language. You are a complete idiot if you haven't learn basic vocabulary words like "proposal." Proof reading can only correct spelling and grammatic errors, not bad writing. I like how you defend your poor vocabulary by calling it a type and then try to excuse as because you are foreign in the same sentence. Its one or the other. Your logic skills are minuscule at best and you can't blame that on being foreign.

I am being talked about and to plenty on the part of the forum you do not have access too.

Popular,
MTP

You hush now Dana, we girls had to work hard to get Mr. Undertoad to let us into that forum, I don't think some Pammy come lately should be able to join right away even if Mr. Undertoad is sweet on her.

I will admit, I do have crush on you. I know I do. sorry.
When I watch porno, I like the woman to be naturale.
If I see a woman who is shaved American style, I do not like that at all. and I search for a new porno on the internet. I have dark hair, so my 'bush' (as they say in America) is dark. I do not know why I am telling you this. I want to see the 'private chat' you speak of, but I do not wish to distrub Mr. Undertoad.

Your friend,
Pam.

Crap. Sorry. I probably should have kept quiet.

I dunno though. It just seems unfair to keep her out of it...


But hey: the collective will and all that. I'll just let it drop.

that is ok, if i must be left out. I understand. No worries...
i am used to it...

Pam.

She has to earn the privilege just like the rest of us Dani. You can't give her a pass just because she's foreign and deaf. If she doesn't want to be made fun of for it, then she shouldn't get special privileges either.

Equally yours,

MTP

Pam why do have a "keeper' like an inmate at an asylum??

I have no idea what you are asking me??

Pam.

Maybe your assistant can explain it to you...

I can read...so probably not...
Pam

Yes comprehension does take a few more IQ points. Anyway You mentioned Cooter was he your boyfriend?

Is that a picture of You?? I do not know you...and I have gone back to being a lesbian. I LOVE SHIOVAN!!!!

What is it that you are seeking from me?? I am having much wine!!! I am drinking...but I do not think Jesus will return tomorrow!!!

Love!!!
Pam.

Ok well I am off to the private forum then bye!

How do I join the 'private forum???'
Please tell me...

Pam

I am not sure for you it has to do with how many years you are hear and some kind of secret handshake and nakid pix. I had to send a photo of my breasts which are quite impressive if I do say so myself. All the dairy cows are jealous!

So what you are saying is that there is not spot for me in the forum??? I am very hurt by that...if that is true. I hope it is not. I would ask Mr. undertaod about this, but I wish not to distrub him.
This is greatly upsettting to me... and now I feel sick. I hope you ar happy. NOT FAIR TO ME!!!!!

Angry!
Pam.

I am just a member I have no control, they have a secret meeting to choose private members. One day they just said I was in. But they don't really let angry people in it upsets the other members.

You would not be allowed to post in the private forum for about a year. Just read.

and look at the pics and videos

I still have no control over my private member.

Especially when Dana, Nirvarna and MTP start flirting with each other.

so where can i view this forum even if i am not worthy of joining??

Pam.

Here. You can my access link. I can only view because I don't have full priviliges yet.
http://cellar.org/secret

pro tip: the inner circle is the chat room. link is at the bottom of every page.

eastern time 10 pm -1am tuesday - saturday. bring your own beer

I can not find the link. yet time is still here. you are part of the society that is toying with me. there is not link.

Pam.

i'm not toying with you. I'm rooting for you.

At the very, very bottom of the page, there are five links:

Eat cookies · Cellar chat · cllr.me · Contact Us - The Cellar - Archive - Top

She was in chat earlier today.

Kinda drunk though, so she might not remember how she got there.

Here I am!

I gotta stop this snorting business...