[Catwoman]

Oh dear.

"I'm still not going to do anything with him till I see the final outcome of the other situation. And in the meantime I'll go on dates with other guys, not going to let his selfishness stop me enjoying myself, and it will come through in the end if he really cares."

It did. He doesn't. And I didn't do any of the above.

Carried on like the stupid weak-willed woman I am. We slept together all the time. Girl B is pretty much out of the equation so I figured I was safe. Got even more involved. Had the best sex EVER. It was gentle, loving, passionate sex. Lots of kissing. He initiated it as much as I did, if not more. We spent many evenings where people assumed we were boyfriend and girlfriend, and he was happy to go along with this, in public. We've been on weekends away, magical weekends talking about life love and everything. I felt something was changing, I was so happy.

Last night he slept with someone else. Went home with her. Girl he met in a bar. Met her while I was there. I was talking to a guy for most of the evening; he said he noticed. I saw him looking. Part of me wants to think he did it in retaliation because he was jealous, but he has told me he never gets jealous, and I think I am making myself more important in his head than I really am. She wasn't even that attractive, and maybe ten years older than him. I went home before him even though he asked if I wanted to stay for a drink. I couldn't bear to watch them flirting so I drove home, drunk, swerving everywhere and trying not to cry. Didn't sleep last night. My eyes are sore.

I don't know what to do. Do I act as if nothing has happened, because at the end of the day, he never promised me anything. Technically, he's done nothing wrong. Or should I tell him how I feel: rejected, betrayed, and very hurt. And then wait for him to say 'I never promised you anything'. That's the only possible outcome. How could I be so stupid?