catwoman.. damn I like the way you think. on some things.. yeah I do believe it is just in my head as of late, she hasn't written/called me in days, so.. although I do want to believe in 'that sort of thing' I am now calling myself a fool, although I have to say.. after years of this shit I am still proud to be a fool for love.. I've been beaten down and kicked round (emotionally..) the thing is I was so astounded that I couild even feel this.. that the whole thing has been worth it.. just for that moment. I felt something that I never thought I would feel again. so for that it was worth it.. then again I've been writting love songs for a woman who doesn't exist on a past that doesn't exist for years.. it helps the guitar/ songwriting process if the person doesn't actually exist to get pissed off at you for writing about it.. then again.. I suppose it's kida wrong? the funny thing is that the girl you are seeing (and no, I'm not a cheap whore anymore) asks you about the material.. and you say you made the whole thing up.. man the look in the eye.. somewhere between oh damn! sorry to hear it.. and you're f*cking crazy... anyway.. I have/had a dream.. really.. a simple dream of things to come and this is where I am going to get off on an odd ass tanget...I have dreamed of some things that have come to happen, and there is something coming up, I hgave had too many de ja' vues of late.. things I drempt earlier in life.. I remember them.. (long story as to why I do).. so.. anyway sometime soon I think 'the one' will come along.. yeah I know it's a foolish concept.. but I can't/won't giv eit up.. to do so would be to surrender too much of my 'soul' or my limited belief system..,. oh wow I guess I've had too much to drink.. disregard the above
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