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I have mentioned in other threads my behavior regarding high stakes events, like tests, interviews, etc. I get increasingly nervous in the run up to the starting gun, then I'm ok. Like the tortuously slow and inexorable clanking ride to the top of the first hill on a (unknown, possibly unsafe, no safeties--gah, must stop--freakin myself out) rollercoaster, my stress level also rises.

Today I'm riding that train up up up. Submitting first application in a minute (or so).

I think I need to submit the app, *then* come back and post my verbiage for proofing, etc. I don't wish to procrastinate any further.

God.

At the top now, looking down from the front seat. The weight of the trailing cars is only momentarily delaying the inevitable...


Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!