thanks for your advice guys, your all so brilliant. just what i needed to hear. everyone i ask in person for advice just says "follow your heart".. PFFT i wish it was that easy.
But i care about him soo much that i know that i have to be cruel to be kind, i have to let him go so he can eventually be happy.
An open relationship really wouldnt work, he doesnt like me goign out too much, he has gripes that i am flirty,and when guys hit on me he says it undermines him as a man.
sigh... this would be easier if he was ugly.
He is coming home tonight and has been texting me saying he cant wait to see me etc - Ive got knots in my tummy about what im going to say - about what decsion i will make (on the spur of the moment) that will determine the (perhaps) the rest of my life.
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