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Ciara · 01-16-2003, 11:33 PM

It's me. I have been doing better. And I don't work under the table like someone said in a previous link. I am currently unemployed and I will return to work on February 5. I did seek help, and have been doing alot better since then.

I did take a nervous breakdown, but like someone else said earlier to me(can't remember who), there is no such thing as a nervous breakdown. Well, what can I say, there really isn't. It's just a way of saying, snapping, freaking out, cracked, major major depression. Depression where you cannot get out of bed, not even to shower, or eat. I was woken up by my mother, who was here for the holidays, to let me know when it was time for dinner. I got up, ate, went right back into bed. I'm not talking about just laying in bed all day, I'm taking serious, serious sleep. Sleeping almost 20 hours or more a day. Getting up fucking on the computer a few minutes, crying hysterically, shitting, pissing, and crying some more, only to get back into bed to cry myself asleep. I did go to the mental facility, at a hospital in Jersey, supposedly one of the best centers, that is why who took me, decided to take me to Jersey. I did not wait in the waiting room for 6 hours. I was in the suicide watch room, they kept asking me if I wanted to be commited, but decided not to stay because, for one psych never even came down to speak to me, and two, I really did have suicidal thoughts, but did nopt think I would ever act on it, I just REALLY really needed to speak to someone. They did want me to comeback for evaluation the next day at their mental facilty, but it was 6 hours a day at $500 dollars a pop. They suggested that I try to just speak to a psychologist, which would be just as best, and cheaper. I have no insurance so this made it hard. I can't afford the psychologist's prices. So...... what I finally started doing, after trying not to have to commit myself just to get some help, was calling all the psychologists in my area and telling them about my situation, and how I felt I desperately needed to speak to someone, I had problems, but could not afford his prices, and he said I wanted to help me, and asked how much I could afford. His prices were $150 a session. I told him I could afford $75. He said he would take that price until I was back to work and able to afford the full price. My first appointment was this Tuesday past.

01-16-2003, 11:33 PM	#10
Ciara :) Join Date: Dec 2002 Posts: 48	. It's me. I have been doing better. And I don't work under the table like someone said in a previous link. I am currently unemployed and I will return to work on February 5. I did seek help, and have been doing alot better since then. I did take a nervous breakdown, but like someone else said earlier to me(can't remember who), there is no such thing as a nervous breakdown. Well, what can I say, there really isn't. It's just a way of saying, snapping, freaking out, cracked, major major depression. Depression where you cannot get out of bed, not even to shower, or eat. I was woken up by my mother, who was here for the holidays, to let me know when it was time for dinner. I got up, ate, went right back into bed. I'm not talking about just laying in bed all day, I'm taking serious, serious sleep. Sleeping almost 20 hours or more a day. Getting up fucking on the computer a few minutes, crying hysterically, shitting, pissing, and crying some more, only to get back into bed to cry myself asleep. I did go to the mental facility, at a hospital in Jersey, supposedly one of the best centers, that is why who took me, decided to take me to Jersey. I did not wait in the waiting room for 6 hours. I was in the suicide watch room, they kept asking me if I wanted to be commited, but decided not to stay because, for one psych never even came down to speak to me, and two, I really did have suicidal thoughts, but did nopt think I would ever act on it, I just REALLY really needed to speak to someone. They did want me to comeback for evaluation the next day at their mental facilty, but it was 6 hours a day at $500 dollars a pop. They suggested that I try to just speak to a psychologist, which would be just as best, and cheaper. I have no insurance so this made it hard. I can't afford the psychologist's prices. So...... what I finally started doing, after trying not to have to commit myself just to get some help, was calling all the psychologists in my area and telling them about my situation, and how I felt I desperately needed to speak to someone, I had problems, but could not afford his prices, and he said I wanted to help me, and asked how much I could afford. His prices were $150 a session. I told him I could afford $75. He said he would take that price until I was back to work and able to afford the full price. My first appointment was this Tuesday past.