shit. I had a long htankful post written. to all of you.
I lost it. I am lost.
today is our 16th wedding anniversary. Happy Anniversary!!
I'm going back over to that other thread. I'm broken. I'm done. I will never be whole again. My whole life has been ripped from me. What I have given is gone. My name will be removed from the history books. I'm being written out of the play. My usefulness has expired. I have nothing to offer. All that remains is the cooling rotting corpse. "Come away from there!" Don't touch it! That's not good for you! You'll get sick! You'll get hurt! Leave that alone, I don't care if it looks like your daddy, it's dangerous.
goddammit I can't win. I can't survive.
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