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Originally Posted by disenchanted
As for the painting thing, I say just find a weekend, get a couple friends and/or relatives together, spring for some pizza and beer, and just do it all at once. Tell your compatriot painters nice stories about your mother as you work. Let 'em know who she was and the good things she did in her life.
Sort of a combined eulogy and painting weekend.
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That is a stunningly good idea.
Painting parties can be really good fun. The therapeutic aspect of it being also some kind of mini-wake might be good too.
Juni, stop being so hard on yourself honey. This was never going to be easy, emotionally I mean. It;s really no wonder stuff is hanging over you and feeling too much. It's wrapped up with so much emotion. You made the right decision (imo) in going back to college. I bet your mum wuold be so proud that you did. That beats getting your act together on her stuff into the ground twice over. Ask your friends for help. Keep doing bits as and when you can.
You may need to develop a slightly more brutal streak on getting rid of some stuff. But that doesn't mean it'll feel easy, honey, it probably won't. Most importantly, though, you need to give yourself a break. Don't be so harsh with yourself. Nobody ever finds this stuff easy and it's twice as hard for an only child. It's right that most of your attention has been focused on your studies: that's far more time-bound than any of this other stuff. You don't get to put off deadlines and exams, they come along when they come along, regardless.
Keep us posted on how you get along. *hugs* You're doing great: look at yourself, you're on track to finish your degree! Keep that thought in mind. Shine it up now and again. There's a reason you chose to do that first.