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So far I've been in three 'serious' relationships. Yet the one I'm in now, I've known the girl since I was 7 years old and have had feelings for her since then. We have been appart for some time which is when I had the other relationships, but I never felt the same level of a 'connection' then as I did with her.
The thing is, when I was crazy about her, every little flaw she had I saw just for that, a little flaw. None of them mattered, she was perfect. Now they're driving me nuts. I keep trying to figure out of those little flaws are the reason it's not working or if the fact that my feelings for her have faded that amplified those flaws.
What really sucks is that I think she might be feeling the same thing for me. Worse yet, we pretty much always wanted to be together and it was a dream come true, now it's turning into a nightmare. I'm totaly lost, we've both made radical changes in our lives to be together but it's not turning into what we expected...maybe it'll go back to how it was. We did just move in together, maybe we're just adjusting...but then I don't even know if I really want the feelings to come back...thats what sucks about indifference..it doesn't matter either way.
The previous two relationships didn't quite end like this. The first the girl ended up cheating on me with my bf and I broke up with her. The third girl was much older than me and wanted a far more serious relationship than I could offer so I broke it off.
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