[plthijinx]

prison. i learned more about myself in prison than ever before in my life. you think you know yourself until you are thrust into an environment where you must survive. especially if you were sent there and are innocent. to go from a life of the pursuit of happiness to the pursuit of survival? this is a side of me that i have not talked about here. sure i tell people yeah prison was no big deal. it was. and there were/are many many mhmra candidates there. you wanted to hear about life changing experiences. here is one of them. before i got locked up i was happy go lucky. when i entered the TDCJ (texas dept. of crim. just.) i was horrifically scared. of the people i was with and of the guards. the conditions were beyond nasty. concrete walls that would sweat when the weather changed. in fact the first dorm i was in was wet 6 months out of the year. i collected myself and cleaned that dorm for 3 months straight because i couldn't stand it anymore. then one night (dorm janitors got the chemicals to clean after lights out to make it easier to clean cuz everyone is supposed to be "racked up") i was cleaning the showers. couldn't help but make noise. well this one big ol black dude half my age got pissed because i was cleaning and making noise and woke him up. he raised Caine. then him and several others "voted" me off the dorm janitor job and opted to clean the dorm themselves each taking turns on a given night. how long did that last? 2 weeks. they begged me to come back to my job. paid me in cigarettes to do so. these mother fu.... were so nasty it took me 3 weeks to catch up to the cleanliness that i had originally obtained. i'm talking when you pour out the mop bucket that the water still looks fresh. not chocolate milky. that is one of many instances that i went through. one day i'll talk about the guy who escaped the same prison not 4 feet in front of me at rec while i was jogging.