so my xwife brought on a "rebuilding mutual respect" thing that turned out to be complete bullshit...the only thing she did in that convo was throwing salt on the wounds.
we literally had this conversation:
her "the only parenting you can do is your own actions"
me "which you limited to nothing..."
her "get used to it :p"
&
her: "quit trying to force yourself into something that isn't yours"
me: "its the biological father's then (who left before she gave birth)? what else do you have with him that you think i don't?"
"5 years of going through more shit then you think you had"
at the very least by her own logic, if the right for parenting comes from years of taking care of him, i have the last two years where she was never there, at best it would mean she has more of a right then i have but not that i don't have. but following her own logic is so inconvient...
and what about willingness to actually indure in order to get the child what he deserved? i stayed there long after i hated every moment i spent with her, when we had nothing but a faint hope of one day having the capaciy to fix our shit (mostly hers). she used that willingness to get what she wanted in every fight. used my love for her and our child against me again and again... which is how i started hating her in the first place.
i really really hate this women. building mutual respect? the capacity to respect her dies the more you get to know her. a personality only a mother and people who are required by law can love.
she can go on with her life, having every relationship die the moment anyone cares enough for her to use it against him until the kid had two dozen fathers and has grown up enough to judge her for who she really is and loose all respect for her as a person, walk out and never call back.
i want nothing to do with her little sick mind anymore.
may she rot in bitch hell.
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