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i have gotten almost 4000 shekels (about 1000USD) in military veteran benefits while i was away, which i didn't find out about until today, contacting the military veteran call center for completely different reasons... seriously you'd think they'd tell you those things? anyway it was nice to find out.
also i have a new business idea which i am researching about, i am loosing weight, i am getting into shape, i am mastering the art of stuffing myself on salads and i am fitting into clothes which i haven't fitted into in months.
the new breathing techniques i have learned a few weeks back are becoming increasingly habitual, and i have had only two panic attacks from thinking about my stepson in the last week (trust me it's a huge improvement). it isn't fading but at least i know what i am dealing with and know i can live with it - i am learning better and better to see those bastards coming.
knowing how much i obsess about birthdays (mine, hers, birthdays in general.. lov' em), since it was just my ex-wife birthday, i have the nice feeling of knowing she'll be expecting me to call or try to contact her, and that i am not (i am keeping to my no-contact-to-get-over-her rule), which will probably be a combination of relief and disappointment for her. its always nice remembering that the person your having such a hard time not thinking about is probably thinking about you.
i am starting to be able to look at other women sexually, which is a huge improvement.
my usual sense of optimism - the knowledge i can overcome every obstacle and always figure out a way - is coming back. my old energetic self... also it helps that i am over caffeinated like hell.
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