I'm sorry UT. I totally do that thing too, where I'm honestly really sure everything is fine now, and then HOLY SHIT it turns out nothing was ever fine and I'm back to square negative-fifty, and then all of a sudden things are looking unexpectedly brighter again just when I was sure I was in for a long deep haul... For me, anyway, the biggest pendulums come right at the end, the last dying bursts of whatever shit has wrapped itself up in my brain, so I hope this may indicate some sort of "darkest before the dawn" thing for you as well.
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