[Razzmatazz13]

Sorry monster, I didn't mean to imply that you were being a big meanie or anything. I just felt dumb for not noticing the info you pointed out on the website. I'm glad for the help, I really don't want to do anything crazy to start out with because I won't be able to continue it (such as doing the workout that I did which set me back a week because I couldn't move after.)

I used to pay for a really nice 24 hr gym back home, paid for it for 2 years and I went... I dunno... maybe 20 times? Of course this was when I lived with my parents and had hardly any bills and my own paycheck so maybe it would be different now, but I just don't want to risk it. I think I have access to something like 3 gyms for free (2 big gyms on base and 1 small one in our community) but that always sets anxiety on me like,

well if I go to the gym then I'll need gym clothes so I should go buy some of that and I dunno if it's in the budget, and if I get clothes I should probably get sneakers because mine are very worn at this point and I don't want to mess up my ankles again and what sort of clothes should I get because I'd like to be comfortable IE shorts and tank top but I don't want anyone to see me in shorts and a tank top so what would I wear to walk over to get to the gym oh well maybe I should just get like some tshirts and work out pants even though that would probably be hot and ew it's all humid and gross outside (and probably raining because I'm in NC and it's always raining) so now I don't want to walk to the gym anymore... ooh.. let's just see what's on the cellar instead


So for now I just want to do something I can do at home, maybe if I lose a little weight and start feeling more comfortable about it I can start going to the little gym across the street. As far as motivation goes, my husband is deployed overseas for the next 6-9 months... I'd really like to lose a noticeable amount of weight while he's gone. He worries about me a lot since he's aware of all the diabetes and other medical issues my family has gone through, so I'd like to take this time to actually do something about it and start getting healthier. I've got nothing but free time and a deadline to use, so why not?