[Sundae]

I never got addicted to cigarettes. Lucky I suppose.
I can have one or two if I'm offered, but no worries, no craving afterwards. I can happily go outside to get fresh air with someone who wants to smoke and not be tempted to have one.

But I dream about drink all the time now.
The dreams are shameful.
I am drinking neat spirits in a car at lunchtime with a colleague, worrying if I am safe to go back into school.
I am drunk at a family funeral and slurring my words as I give a eulogy.
I am having a bit of a session in a pub and the fire alarm goes off and I remember I am responsible for my class but I can't find them all because I am drunk.

And so on.

Addiction, whether medical or psychological is hard to break. Because your brain - the very organ who thinks for you, colludes against you.