[Trilby]

Originally Posted by Sundae

I never got addicted to cigarettes. Lucky I suppose.
I can have one or two if I'm offered, but no worries, no craving afterwards. I can happily go outside to get fresh air with someone who wants to smoke and not be tempted to have one.

But I dream about drink all the time now.
The dreams are shameful.
I am drinking neat spirits in a car at lunchtime with a colleague, worrying of I am safe to go back into school.
I am drunk at a family funeral and slurring my words as I give a eulogy.
I am having a bit of a session in a pub and the fire alarm goes off and I remember I am responsible for my class but I can't find them all because I am drunk.

And so on.

Addiction, whether medical or psychological is hard to break. Because your brain - the very organ who thinks for you, colludes against you.

that's the rub. your actual brain, your OWN brain, is trying to kill you.

No one understands that except those of us afflicted---and not always then, either.

Sundae---I have those drinking/using dreams too. It's normal. it really, really, really is normal to have those dreams.