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(continued from foot's thread)
Part of the reason I lost it before was that my mom had called and I was crying and telling her that she doesn't want to talk to me about my work struggles and the deaths of friends and she assured me she cares and she was so happy when I committed myself and yet I could see her face this weekeend and it felt to me like she hates me, hates everything I say and do. Well maybe not hates but it's like she wishes her daughters-in-law were her daughters. I bring up the tiniest thing about work and she doesn't want to listen. But she SAID I could talk to her.
And you wouldn't believe how perfect my brothers and their families are. THey would make a normal person look bad: think how they make the black sheep crazy daughter look.
It could be a monday feeling but if I put in a resignation I won't get unemployment but they would pay out my vacation time if I gave 30 days.
I don't know. I'm feeling miserable.
That is all.
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