[Aliantha]

You're right fargon, and I wont be the one to walk away even though I'm full of big talk on here. My family means everything to me.

I am just tired of saying the same things. I'm tired of feeling like I'm nagging. I'm tired of begging. Our relationship has been pretty shitty for some time now, and his answer to that is to go fishing. My response is to cling to the kids.

We need to sort it out, but it's not the right time yet. The dust needs to settle after last weekends doozy. Anything I write to him now is not going to come across how I mean it to, and anything I write is likely to be tinged with my anger and frustration anyway, which is not going to help. I know what i need to do. I just have to wait for the right time.

I guess I'm just doing a lot of venting here. I don't usually bring this sort of stuff up on here, but it's just a bit much now. I have to get it out somewhere. Better here than having another argument I guess.