Can you go directly to a dr? They could get you in to see someone faster maybe, or perscribe something temporaily?
When I started my crying fits, and panic attacks, the Dr gave me antidepresents... I did not fill the script, and now am wondering if I should have... Getting help, even short term, might at least stop Momma from crying, maybe
either way kids are not oblivious... they already know something is up, its how handle it that will make more of an impression
good luck to you, and even though I feel am not dealing well with all my issues, if you ever want to vent, please feel free to pm me anytime.