[Sundae]

Starting a proper medical detox next Friday.
I have to do this before I can start any anti-craving medication.
Bloody hell, this has been a long time coming. This is what I was angling for THIS TIME LAST YEAR.

Still, it's happening so I can't knock it.
And I'm actually earning more money and performing better at work than I was. So it's progress.

I'll try to talk you through it as it happens. My very kind, but definitely no-nonsense SCAS (Specialist Community Addictions Service) key worker tells me things will get worse before they get better. He wanted me to assure him that someone would be around who knew what I was going through and that I wouldn't work for 4-5 days. Nix on both.

The 'rents go to Spain on Wednesday and although I'm not working Friday or Saturday it's far too late notice to take Sunday, Monday, Tuesday off. And I can't take sick leave without having a mandatory disciplinary as I'm still on probation.
Will just have to fight my way through.

He shrugged and said that it would be better for me to get started than put it off.
With my consent we will go ahead. I have to pass a blood and breathalyser test, so no last hurrah.

The good news is that things should even out within a few days physically.
The first four-five will hit me hardest. I can expect the symptoms of hangover without having had a drink, as well as the possibility of wooziness, slurring speech and lack of balance. Not everyone gets all the symptoms and it's possible I will have none.

In about two weeks I'll see real improvements.

And within three months I should be on a level playing field emotionally. If not, they can tinker with my anti-anxiety medication.
Everything from there is willpower and counselling.

Wish me luck.