[DanaC]

In my usual dysfunctional way, when faced with the dilemma of not working full-time therefore being broke but having time to write two articles, or working full-time and having no time to write articles, opted to work part time and do fuck all towards article writing for the last 6 months.* I am now in more or less the same position I was in then - with just as much to do and just as little money coming in and just as long a time-scale on sorting things out.

So today, on one of my two work-free weekdays, I forced myself to get out of bed at 7:30 and having helped mum clean her car so she can take it into the garage without dying of shame, I made myself sit at my desk and read through the whole of one of the thesis chapters I'm trying to adapt, jotting down general thoughts, observations and notes.

It was only 90 minutes of work - but it's left me with a sense of the task for that article - and some ideas of how to approach it. I feel like I am reconnecting with the material in a meaningful way. This shouldn't be a difficult thing to do since this is stuff I am deeply interested in; yet somehow I fight shy of setting my mind to it.

What's making me feel quite happy is that I came this close *finger and thumb* to having a lie down, because I didn't sleep well last night and the thought of doing anything was making me feel sleepy - and I somehow managed to not do that - with some difficulty I might add - and instead made a coffee and some raisin toast and then sat at my desk with glasses on ready to read and make notes.






*Actually, no, I did spend some time aimlessly and fruitlessly tootling about the interwebz looking for additional stuff on NCOs and trying to write an introduction for the NCO article. I then panicked and went full-bore Lost and Person of Interest on its ass.

I've set the NCO stuff to one side and am focusing on the black market paper instead. It's less involved in terms of additional research and probably a lot more straightforward in terms of adaptation as well. I'm hoping the experience of adapting this will help clarify what I need to be doing with the NCO article too.