Overwhelmed

[DanaC]

My guess is some aspects of the job are helpful and some are detrimental to the OP's emotional state. The balance will shift according to many factors including whatever else is going on in the OP's life at the time.

RFN the job may be harmful but a week from now, or a few months along, and the job might be the most positive and self-affirming aspect of the OP's life.

These things tend to wax and wane.