What's upsetting you today? - Page 666

Sundae · 09-10-2014, 05:34 AM

Very little is going right, right now. The huge weight of getting my rehab date has been lifted, but like a stone it's exposed lots of creepy little things underneath.

As well asthe Diz issue, although that's the biggie.

Had a letter this morning telling me my gastroscopy appointment has been relocated.
Oh right.
It's Wednesday, the appointment is Friday, and it's been moved to Leeds.
£3.90 bus fare away. And I have to hold another £3.90 in reserve to go in on Tuesday.
Now that might sound like nothing, but when you're living on practically nothing, desperately sorting out bills and toiletries and things for a three month stay, that's a right pain in the arse.
FTR the appointment was originally scheduled for the hospital just outside Otley, which is an easily walkable two miles.

Going to go home and phone them. Which fills me with The Fear.
Thing is I can't even put it off, really, because you follow a strict programme and routine once you've been admitted. I don't think St Anne's would be best impressed if I turned up and said "Oh btw, I need a day off for an appointment I decided to cancel before I came in so I could buy some shampoo and toothpaste."

It's all getting overwhelming again.
A crash after the high of being accepted so much sooner than I expected.

Aliantha · 09-10-2014, 05:42 AM

Sundae, just one thing at a time hey? You will be able to get away without toothpaste and shampoo. Someone will spot you some when you get there. Go to the appointment and get it out of the way. Diz is the main problem, and i cant sort that one out. Maybe if you could do a doorknock in the area you might find a kind soul. Try the local churches. There has to be some crazy cat ladies around somewhere. Xx

Sundae · 09-10-2014, 10:13 AM

I know chick, and thanks.
I would pretend that this panic and inability to properly assign priorities is due to my mental health, but y'all know me too well.
I've always been like this, but in my defence, it IS worse at present.
And I remember when going up two dress sizes was the end of the world.
This too shall pass.

The Cellar as a sounding board. I know there are many of us who have reason to appreciate that.
Thanks to everyone.

infinite monkey · 09-10-2014, 11:51 AM

When you're in the midst of it, it's a tough thing to remind yourself that 'this too will pass.' So that's a good step, right there.

When I'm in the midst of it, now that I've pretty much trained myself to remind myself that it will pass, I tend to now think 'until the next time. and the next time after that, and the next time after that.'

That is what I (and perhaps you) need to be very wary of. Because I don't feel stronger each time I beat it. I wait for the infinite numbers of other shoes to drop. Therein lies the danger. This is when I know I have to really work harder...when 'getting through it this time like all the times before' doesn't seem like much.

I don't know. Maybe this helps, or resonates. I often say 'it'll all work out, it always does' but it's hard to see it sometimes, or care, or maybe even want it to.

I am, as are others here and in your 'real' life, on your side. We want to see you succeed. I hope all goes well with Diz and with your treatment. You've got a lot going for you: maybe you'll see that. :hugz:

Griff · 09-10-2014, 06:19 PM

Tonight the President will go on tv and patiently explain to us why we need more American war-making. How about we do a quick re-read of War is a Racket by General Smedley Butler before we subject our ears to his nonsense. Haverford man btw.

Undertoad · 09-10-2014, 06:22 PM

link is about bees

xoxoxoBruce · 09-10-2014, 08:33 PM

War is a Racket.

Griff · 09-10-2014, 09:47 PM

oops

Sundae · 09-10-2014, 11:43 PM

Thanks Infi.
And everyone else who has supported me here.

I do have some hard work to do on myself, and the opportunity I've been given is exceptional. It's not going to be a walk in the park, just because it's residential it doesn't mean you're cut off from real life. You have responsibilities from the first week and segue back into your "real life" as the weeks progress.

But it's the best chance I've had in years.
Am equally grateful and terrified.

xoxoxoBruce · 09-11-2014, 12:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sundae

...It's not going to be a walk in the park, just because it's residential it doesn't mean you're cut off from real life. You have responsibilities from the first week and segue back into your "real life" as the weeks progress.

Oh, so you've been accepted MI-6, have to get your license training, then slip back into the mainstream like it never happened.
Probably recruited by Limey. Hmm She could easily be working for either side, even both sides. The force is strong in that one.

Or maybe Carruthers, he has a mysterious past. Obviously spend some time working in Cheyenne Mountain. All that top secret badda boom, stuff. Had a brother-in-law who worked there in the early '60s... been a little off in the head ever since.

Sundae · 09-11-2014, 04:43 AM

"My name's Sundae, I carry a badge."

Carruthers · 09-11-2014, 04:49 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce

Or maybe Carruthers, he has a mysterious past.

I'm a man of many parts. Most of them rusty.

BigV · 09-11-2014, 11:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sundae

"My name's Sundae, I carry a badge."

"My name's Sundae, I carry a spoon."

"My name's Sundae, I carry a calendar."

...

I like yours better.

Sundae · 09-11-2014, 11:29 AM

I have a teaspoon and an open mind.

Clodfobble · 09-11-2014, 05:23 PM

"I would have liked... to see... Montana."

09-10-2014, 05:34 AM	#9976
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Very little is going right, right now. The huge weight of getting my rehab date has been lifted, but like a stone it's exposed lots of creepy little things underneath. As well asthe Diz issue, although that's the biggie. Had a letter this morning telling me my gastroscopy appointment has been relocated. Oh right. It's Wednesday, the appointment is Friday, and it's been moved to Leeds. £3.90 bus fare away. And I have to hold another £3.90 in reserve to go in on Tuesday. Now that might sound like nothing, but when you're living on practically nothing, desperately sorting out bills and toiletries and things for a three month stay, that's a right pain in the arse. FTR the appointment was originally scheduled for the hospital just outside Otley, which is an easily walkable two miles. Going to go home and phone them. Which fills me with The Fear. Thing is I can't even put it off, really, because you follow a strict programme and routine once you've been admitted. I don't think St Anne's would be best impressed if I turned up and said "Oh btw, I need a day off for an appointment I decided to cancel before I came in so I could buy some shampoo and toothpaste." It's all getting overwhelming again. A crash after the high of being accepted so much sooner than I expected. __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

09-10-2014, 05:42 AM	#9977
Aliantha trying hard to be a better person Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Brisbane, Australia Posts: 16,493	Sundae, just one thing at a time hey? You will be able to get away without toothpaste and shampoo. Someone will spot you some when you get there. Go to the appointment and get it out of the way. Diz is the main problem, and i cant sort that one out. Maybe if you could do a doorknock in the area you might find a kind soul. Try the local churches. There has to be some crazy cat ladies around somewhere. Xx __________________ Kind words are the music of the world. F. W. Faber

09-10-2014, 10:13 AM	#9978
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	I know chick, and thanks. I would pretend that this panic and inability to properly assign priorities is due to my mental health, but y'all know me too well. I've always been like this, but in my defence, it IS worse at present. And I remember when going up two dress sizes was the end of the world. This too shall pass. The Cellar as a sounding board. I know there are many of us who have reason to appreciate that. Thanks to everyone. __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

09-10-2014, 06:19 PM	#9980
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	Tonight the President will go on tv and patiently explain to us why we need more American war-making. How about we do a quick re-read of War is a Racket by General Smedley Butler before we subject our ears to his nonsense. Haverford man btw. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

09-10-2014, 08:33 PM	#9982
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	War is a Racket. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

09-10-2014, 11:51 AM	#9979
infinite monkey Person who doesn't update the user title Join Date: Mar 2011 Posts: 13,002	When you're in the midst of it, it's a tough thing to remind yourself that 'this too will pass.' So that's a good step, right there. When I'm in the midst of it, now that I've pretty much trained myself to remind myself that it will pass, I tend to now think 'until the next time. and the next time after that, and the next time after that.' That is what I (and perhaps you) need to be very wary of. Because I don't feel stronger each time I beat it. I wait for the infinite numbers of other shoes to drop. Therein lies the danger. This is when I know I have to really work harder...when 'getting through it this time like all the times before' doesn't seem like much. I don't know. Maybe this helps, or resonates. I often say 'it'll all work out, it always does' but it's hard to see it sometimes, or care, or maybe even want it to. I am, as are others here and in your 'real' life, on your side. We want to see you succeed. I hope all goes well with Diz and with your treatment. You've got a lot going for you: maybe you'll see that. :hugz:

09-10-2014, 06:22 PM	#9981
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	link is about bees

09-10-2014, 09:47 PM	#9983
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	oops __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

09-10-2014, 11:43 PM	#9984
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Thanks Infi. And everyone else who has supported me here. I do have some hard work to do on myself, and the opportunity I've been given is exceptional. It's not going to be a walk in the park, just because it's residential it doesn't mean you're cut off from real life. You have responsibilities from the first week and segue back into your "real life" as the weeks progress. But it's the best chance I've had in years. Am equally grateful and terrified. __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

09-11-2014, 04:43 AM	#9986
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	"My name's Sundae, I carry a badge." __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

09-11-2014, 11:29 AM	#9989
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	I have a teaspoon and an open mind. __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

09-11-2014, 05:23 PM	#9990
Clodfobble UNDER CONDITIONAL MITIGATION Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Austin, TX Posts: 20,012	"I would have liked... to see... Montana." __________________ My book My other book My spirit animal

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