Just want to introduce myself...

[Abby's Hope...]

First off, I am very upset with my living conditions. I live in a very bad area...and I feel threatened just walking outside my building...

Life was not supposed to be this way for me; but I accept the poor decisions that I have made. Has any1 else ever felt so trapped??
I do not have a lot of money; and am ashamed of my shabby appearance... I just wish I knew how to do better.

My lover wanted me to confess??? So I will.

The only time I am not unhappy is when I am sleeping.
I also wrote a suicide note 2 years ago, but I am still alive...
I just do not know how much more I have in the tank...
Just lost and lonely; and no where to turn...and no one to
turn to...