Clarinet. It might partially be motivation. It's likely a combination of a lot of things. It's like this: 3 years ago the orchestra I play in did a piece where I had a brutally difficult solo. I practiced it to death and then I played the hell out of it. This semester I had an equally difficult solo and I practiced it to death and I never did get it right. If it was an isolated incident I could (maybe) shrug it off but it's just another example of how I'm past my peak. I'd rather go out when I can still play.
Also, you're all very nice and encouraging, which I appreciate, don't get me wrong. But none of you have actually ever heard me play. For all you know I suck ass and I'd be doing the world a great favor if I set my horns on fire.
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