It's my Wedding Anniversary

monster · 05-20-2020, 03:56 PM

26 years. Doing math in the shower -like I do- I realized what a massive percentage of my life was spent with beest compared to without. I was 19, about to turn 20 when we met. I was 47.5 when he died. So 28 years or so, compared to 19 without. And when you think of how little of your first 5 years or so you remember..... and the rest of the pre-beest years were the shit school years with a bad home situation. No wonder I feel adrift.... I miss him, I miss us.

And they were great years. And I did know it was good, and yet I still didn't realize.... until it was gone. I don't think you can.

I'm not after sympathy or therapy or advice on how to pull myself together. I'm just saying it like it is.

05-20-2020, 03:56 PM	#1
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	It's my Wedding Anniversary 26 years. Doing math in the shower -like I do- I realized what a massive percentage of my life was spent with beest compared to without. I was 19, about to turn 20 when we met. I was 47.5 when he died. So 28 years or so, compared to 19 without. And when you think of how little of your first 5 years or so you remember..... and the rest of the pre-beest years were the shit school years with a bad home situation. No wonder I feel adrift.... I miss him, I miss us. And they were great years. And I did know it was good, and yet I still didn't realize.... until it was gone. I don't think you can. I'm not after sympathy or therapy or advice on how to pull myself together. I'm just saying it like it is. __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

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