When your SSRI fizzles out

[Trilby]

My doctor told me to take the summer off--not go to school. I was stressed and anxious and setting goals that were too high for myself (must prove self worthy of love via high honors, etc.) and generally geeking. They put me on a new antidepressant--from 80mg Prozac (was feeling v. numb on that) to 450 mg. wellbutrin. It's been three 1/2 months on the wellbutrin and though I feel less numb, I still have these shitty depressions and anxious moods where I feel like I'm going to fly into bits and dissolve. Of course, they cannot give me any good anxiolytics like xanax or ativan or similar. I just have to work thru it. Well, some days I can't work thru it. I think I should have taken at least one or two classes to keep my mind occupied. The professor is back from London and of course he's gotten in touch and of course THAT'S not helping...gads, I'm rambling. Anyway--I guess I should change RX again...sigh. I hate this shit. It seems the longer you deal with depression the harder it is to lift it.