Narcissistic Personality Disorder (a novella, sorry)

[Sundae]

Okay, who wants to be the bad guy here...?
Anyone? (Bueller?)
Anyone?

Nope.
Me then.

I don't have a Narcissistic Personality Disorder, although sometimes I pretend on here to be more about me me me than I really am. It's a pressure valve, you know?

But I do have a personality disorder. And the addiction issues and dangerous behavioural impulses that tag along with it.

I'm really really hard work. Y'all are okay behind your screens because I can't get to you.
I burn through people very quickly by being too needy, demanding and downright appalling.
I hurt very good people. I did this with my ex husband and I doubt I will ever have a "romantic" relationship again, even though I think I'm in love. I don't know if that decision makes me a better person, or just makes me more of a drama queen, but I've held firm on that for nearly two decades now.

All I'm saying is that people can be nasty, be awful, cruel and unkind and show no empathy. But there are also people out there who can't help their own f*cked up heads, and try their best afterwards to make amends because they were actually raised right and do feel it.

No help to you if you're the one they've steamrollered.
But I'm a rollercoaster ride. Hop on and try.