Divorce -- The Soundtrack

[Deuce]

Music is universal.

I am especially sensitive to the lyrics of songs, sometimes it feels as if the radio or the stereo has come to life and is speaking directly to me, usually about what is most on my mind at the moment. Sometimes it speaks aloud what my subconscious cannot articulate. The stronger the feelings, the louder the voice. The cacophony these days is deafening.

Here are the tunes (and lyrics) that reverberate in my head and my heart.

Wipeout -- The Surfaris

"Already Over Me" -- The Rolling Stones
(Jagger/Richards)

As you poured out the drinks for me
I felt your hooks sink right into me
And I knew you were my destiny
And I thought you'd get the best of me

On the way down to Mexico
As I danced in your rodeo
You say poverty is picturesque
As you dragged your nails across my chest

You're so cold
You're so cruel
I'm your man
Not your fool

Are you already over me
Are you already over me
Are you already over me
What a fool I've been

In the first flush of ecstasy
As you lay naked next to me
While our love put the dawn to flight
I just ignore all those warning lights

Cause when you laugh
I just cry
When you left
I just died

Are you already over me
Are you already over me
Are you already sick me
What a fool I've been

Hard to hold on
To a love divine
I'm kneeling in a corner
Praying to your shrine

I've been hurt
So confused
I've been burned
I've been bruised

Are you already over me
Are you already over me
Are you already sick of me
Are you already over me
Are you already over me
Are you already tired of me
Are you already over me
What a fool I've been
What a fool I've been
What a fool I've been

[Shawnee123]

This one always gets to me:

Fleetwood Mac Landslide

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down

[Hoof Hearted]

Hubby and I had a laugh over this song when our friend would come over, lamenting about his ex-wife, yet again. (they tried to get back together but he expected her to do all the work of repairing his infidelity...*rolls eyes*)

"She Hates Me" by Puddle of Mud

Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

in a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

She fucking hates me
trust
she fucking hates me
la la la love
I tried too hard
and she tore my feelings like I had none
and ripped them away

She was queen for about an hour
after that shit got sour
she took all I ever had
no sign of guilt
no feeling of bad, no

In a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought i'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

[Chorus]

that's my story, as you see
learned my lesson and so did she
now it's over and i'm glad
'cause i'm a fool for all i've said

[Chorus]

la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
and she tore my feelings like I had none
she fucking hates me

[DanaC]

The Radiohead album 'OK Computer' always gets me. The song No Surpises, even now I can't listen to it. If I do I just...sob. That album was on my playlist during my most unhappy time. The last year and a half of the relationship was a slow death. To love someone and not be in love with them hurts. The overwhelming sense of guilt almost, but not quite overshadowed by feelings of resentment....which then takes you back to guilt. Feeling like you're one of the lost ones. I sometimes just sat on the edge of the couch, alone thinking "I want to go home" knowing I already was....and knowing it wasn't really home. I think I just wanted to be 10 again.

More than any other song, 'No Surprises' seemed to catch that mood for me. The lyrics alone don't show why...it was the combination of the lyrics and the melody and the singer's delivery. I'm sat here typing and even just thinking about that time and that song, playing it through in my head..I'm fighting tears.

No Surprises
A heart that's full up like a landfill,
a job that slowly kills you,
bruises that won't heal.
You look so tired-unhappy,
bring down the government,
they don't, they don't speak for us.
I'll take a quiet life,
a handshake of carbon monoxide,

with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
Silent silence.

This is my final fit,
my final bellyache,

with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises please.

Such a pretty house
and such a pretty garden.

No alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises please.

[freshnesschronic]

Lyfe Jennings - The Phoenix

Goodbye

Sometimes makin up is easier than breakin up
We believe if we just fake it enough
We can trick our selves into believing that we're still in love
But in our harts we know that it's inevitable
Though it's hard to let you go I know I must


Sometimes memories just ain't enough
Sometimes you out grow the ones you love
Sometimes it's none of the above
It's just the fact that people change
No one's to blame
There ain't nothin that stays the same
So we sit around and cry
Because neither one of us wants to be the first to say
Goodbye


Sometimes givin 2nd chances is easier than dealing with the fact that
Once the trust is gone you could never get it back
But your holdin on because your afraid of bein alone
So here you are holdin on to somethin thats already gone
And don't act like it's the first time you've heard it in this song
Cause your heart done told you all along

If your momma done showed you right from wrong
No thing should hold you down this long
There's no one to blame nothin stays the same
So we sit around and cry because neither one of us wants to be the first to say goodbye
So let me be the first to say...goodbye

[elSicomoro]

Living Colour--"Broken Hearts"

I see the fragments of the dreams I used to have
And bits of aspiration lying in the sand
The stained glass wall of love that I cannot see through
Provides the only light here in my lonely room

A breeze reminds me of the changing time and place
A tear that takes forever rolls down your timeless face

I hear that they say that broken hearts will mend
But when they do they're never good as new
I wish right now I could change it back
I never meant to do the things I did to hurt you

I never really thought that it would come to this
Sometimes the things you lose are often the things you miss
I see the reason for things I used to do
They're all transparent now and so I see the truth

I hear they say that broken hearts will mend
But when they do they're never good as new
I wish right now that I could change it back
I know you don't believe but I care about you
And I never meant to do those things I did to hurt you

[Deuce]

Your Good Thing (Is About To End) -- Lou Rawls

I don't have to beg you to hold me,
Somebody else will.
You don't have to love me when I want it,
No, 'cause somebody else will.
Some kind friends say you don't need it...
But all the time they're trying to get it.
Look out, your good thing is about to come to an end,
Your real good thing is about to come to an end.

All those nights I watched the four walls
I did not have to watch them all alone
When other girls said they wanted me, baby,
I didn't have to tell them I was your very own
You have all the love that I've got
Even ice melts to water and gets hot... look out...
Your good thing is about to come to an end,
Your real good thing its about to end

Getting myself back together
Is gonna be a big problem I know,
But when the right woman says she wants me, Boy,
You can bet I won't tell her 'No'
'Cause your real good thing is about to come to an end
Your real good thing, your good thing Baby
Good thing, your good thing, your good thing Baby

[Deuce]

Pardon -- The Robert Cray Band

(Intro)

I hear him when he weeps and moans
I've even seen him shed tears
For after taking those wedding vows
That didn't last many years
I've seen him walk the streets alone
In the wind and rain cold and weak
Help the poor man save his heart
Take him in, make him neat
And grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon from love

The people talk when he passes by
And they don't seem to care
The pain he hides down in his soul
That they don't want to share
If he could turn this world around
He could be like you and me
Help him break these chains of love
Help the man go free

And grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon from love

(guitar solo)

And grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon from love

He's guilty of nothing that I can think of, oh no
So let's not convict him
He just happens to be a prisoner of love

So if you're out on that lonely street
And by chance pass him by
Don't rush to judgement or put him down
Cause you could be that guy
Someone could take your heart to school one day
And that would surely change your plans
And all the things you think you know
Now you understand

And grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon from love

All you got to do is
Grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon
Grant him a pardon from love

Grant him a pardon, baby
Grant him a pardon from love

Just grant him a pardon
From love

Won't ya

(guitar outro)

[Deuce]

Always Suffering -- The Rolling Stones
(Jagger/Richards)

Let's take a walk
Just you and me
And talk of days gone by
Across the fields
Under the trees
Let's speak of you and I

While the whole world
Was wandering
We walked a steady line
When all our friends
Were wavering
We kept on trying

Now we're always suffering
Already lost
Always suffering
Already lost

Remember when
On summer days
I would sing a lovers son
How you would smile
Shower me with praise
And the sun shined on

Now the rain is falling slow
And the nights grow long
And the train
Cries out so hauntingly
She is gone

Now we're always suffering
Already lost
We're always suffering
Already lost

Please take these flowers
Smell the perfume
Let your soul come alive
Let there be hope
Hope in your heart
That our love may revive

For life is but a chance
On a wind swept hill
And the seeds of love
Are swirling above
Let them be still

But we're always suffering
We're already lost
Always suffering
Already lost

[DucksNuts]

Deuce, I have been reading your posts and havent commented, because I am on the other end of this trip. I have just served my ex....

Anyways, this is the ultimate break up song...



Where I Stood - Missy Higgins

I don't know what i've done
Or if i like what i've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That i should go and this should end
Oh and i found my self listening

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

See i thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you aren't leaving without a fight
And i think i am just as torn inside

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

And I wont be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one i've ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so i say to you, this is what i have to do.

Cause i don't know who i am, who i am without you
All i know is that i should
And i don't know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Cause she will love you more then i could
She who dares to stand where i stood
She who dares to stand where i stood.

[Deuce]

My First Night Alone Without You -- Bonnie Raitt

There is an aching in my head
From the bed I can’t get used to
It’s these little hours in the dark, I dread
As I spend my first night alone without you

Honey, half of me has gone away
With all the love I learned to cling to
Tomorrow I’ll have to find another way
To live the rest of my life alone without you

You taught me how to live
How to be myself
And how to give
Oh, but now it’s you
Who’s given up on giving

You’ve lost the thing, no one to teach
Changing and now you’re out of reach
And my life tonight just don’t seem worth living
No, no

I’ve been sitting learning how to read
Cause back in school I never liked to
It’s just one of those little things I’m gonna need
As I put my life together, baby, without you

[Deuce]

My mother sang this song to me when I was a baby. I sang this song to my son when I held him, when he was a baby. I know the song is about two adults, but the chorus applies to anyone. And I hear it and it makes me cry.

You are My Sunshine -- Norman Blake

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But now you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

[Deuce]

My sunshine is definitely gone.

Everything Turns Grey -- Agent Orange

Things don't seem to be as easy
As they used to be
It's getting harder everyday
To think of better things to say
About what's going on around you
And what's happening inside you
When it's time to change you won't know how
It won't matter years from now

(chorus)
No matter what you think
Or do or say
Everything turns grey

This is it, the darkest hour
Isn't it depressing
How our minds create an atmosphere
That won't happen here
Unless we make some new demands
To grasp the future in our hands
You know I wish we could but it's too late
For senseless minds that love to hate
No matter what they think
Or do or say
Everything turns grey

(chorus)

[Deuce]

I am sorry, so sorry, so sad. Hard to say, harder to hear, hardest to forgive. Please accept my apologies. I offer them without any strings attached. I hope you accept them, they're yours to do with what you see fit.

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word with Elton John by Ray Charles

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other nite, dear,
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you
And make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me
To love another
You'll regret it all some day;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once, dear
You really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you've left me
And love another
You have shattered all my dreams;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.