Will I Stay or Will I Go?

[BigV]

Originally Posted by limey

Remember you said this. It is true. Hold these thoughts.

Sent by thought transference

Sammy Jankis.

[BigV]

Originally Posted by BigV

Sammy Jankis.

Sammy Jankis is a character in the movie Memento. Leonard used Sammy's story as a way to remind himself that he must stay organised and note everything down. Leonard's "writing down" began with a tattoo of Sammy Jankis' name to help him remember.

I hope you remember that you said you'll be ok, that you said you'll get through this. If it takes (a long convoluted story about a tattoo about) Sammy Jankis, so be it.

[infinite monkey]

i lived through it, and actually held on to some dignity. now, i wait.

so glad that part is over. thanks, all.

[glatt]

well done!

[DanaC]

Yey for you

Well done m'dear. Worst is done with now. And you are stronger by the hour.

[infinite monkey]

OK, whoever.

Anyway, in case you've all been wondering, I've heard nothing since my appeal meeting.

I got a call from D*I*R of H*R* (ix-nay on the oogle-gay) that the courier will be delivering my letter this afternoon. That's how Cap and Fire 1.0 got the final call too.

Ain't this FUN?

[infinite monkey]

Ahhh. Thanks.

I'm just at my rope's end. I want this to be over and I've been through so many levels of limbo (if limbo had levels) and it's been a rough couple days.

I know it will be over soon but I can't help but almost expect some last fuckover.

Because, you know, I'm still alive and I'm not insane; not sure that's the outcome they've wanted for all these days. Er...weeks. I mean...months.

And I really need a beer and I'm broke until tomorrow.

[infinite monkey]

C'est fini!

[monster]

Originally Posted by infinite monkey

C'est fini!

will you get your vaycaypay?

[footfootfoot]

Originally Posted by infinite monkey

C'est fini!

C'est Infini!

[glatt]

Bravo!

[footfootfoot]

Put some gas on your card and come over for a visit. I've got plenty of beer.

[ZenGum]

You're free.

If it's a nice day, go sit in the sun and breathe deeply.

[infinite monkey]

Originally Posted by footfootfoot

Put some gas on your card and come over for a visit. I've got plenty of beer.

Ha! Brew some monkey beer!

Originally Posted by monster

will you get your vaycaypay?

I have to contact HR about all that. I just looked up my bank account and it was the regular old paycheck. Hmmm, I also need to know how I view my pay advices since I'm no longer a part of the system: I need to monitor it, I think.

Originally Posted by ZenGum

You're free.

If it's a nice day, go sit in the sun and breathe deeply.

For the last two days I've been outside. I've been helping with a festival at my favorite park/reserve. My brother's association has an event. I've been burying rocks and digging up rocks (giant hills of sand brought for the event, then we bury various types of rocks and fossils and stuff then the kids get to dig for them and identify what they are) and basically hanging out with hundreds of kindergarten-1st graders. OMG what fun. And being out there...oh yeah, I remember ME. I mean, I feel really good and felt in my element. We do it again tomorrow (it will be moved to the fairgrounds if it rains.) It's been really great for me. I, of course, helped a couple kids 'find' a shark tooth, or some fool's gold. There is limestone, flint, gypsum...etc and so on.

There is also a petting zoo, so today I petted a kangaroo (a tiny one, the guy was holding it like a baby) and a baby cow and alpacas (soooo soft!) and goats.

Kids and animals have always loved me ('cause they don't know any better.)

Anyway, onward and upward. For the first time, I feel really good about this. I feel like I got my life and myself back.

Aside from a little sunburn on my face (which will turn into a tan as always) and some sore feet and some tired muscles (I worked HARD!) I feel better than I have in a long long time.

My brother said he's really proud of how I've dealt with all this.

Now, let's just hope that I don't have to fight for what I've earned (it's not completely over yet.)

Thanks everybody!!!!!!

[glatt]

Glad you're having fun at the park!