Suicide Watch Thread - Page 2

07-05-2007, 01:56 PM

Not hollow at all, it helps to get it out. More than you can know. Thank you for your kind word and just being there.

limey · 07-06-2007, 03:17 PM

I'd like to second what bani said about suicide - it's awful to think that the help you offered wasn't enough.

BrianR · 07-07-2007, 07:24 PM

I have attended three suicides to date. All have been close friends. I held the hand of one all the way.

Two had cancers, one had AIDS.

All were within days of a natural death (debatable).

All went quietly and peacefully, in the presence of family and friends.

If I get a choice, THAT is how I want to go. Nothing left unsaid, goodbyes tendered ETC.

It's the wrist-slashing, hanging by a lamp cord, shotgun in the mouth kind that give me Willies!

Brian

Cicero · 07-09-2007, 12:31 PM

RK- I understand you are in a lot of pain at times......
My fiance was in a lot of pain once and killed himself while I was at work. See how that sounds?
Please remember to be patient and to keep looking for a different method. Suicide only compounds problems and pain- this is one thing I can be sure of. Keep fighting. Besides-you seem like you still have a lot of spirit and fight left in you. (as evidenced by the mohawk poll)
Well there's "too much information" for you- but hopefully it's useful to someone out there.

07-10-2007, 05:58 PM

It's not just the pain, it feels like the pain is stealing "me".

Shawnee123 · 07-11-2007, 08:33 AM

Your pain hasn't stolen "you" from us. You still give us laughs and points to ponder and insight into things we may never have dealt with.

Being purely selfish myself, I'd request that you stick around for a long, long time.

yesman065 · 07-11-2007, 08:19 PM

We've had our disagreements rk, but I have always enjoyed your perspective and you have expanded my outlook on many issues - you have a unique ability to share a perspective that very very few of us would otherwise have. You have experiences and knowledge that would otherwise be lost. That is a great gift my friend - please keep on giving.

07-12-2007, 06:55 PM

Last few days the "urge" seems to have passed. Oddly, I feel a lot more depressed. It is really strange now, all the colors of the world seem, somehow, dim.
I feel like I'm slipping into a hole.
I know I'm not making sense, I'm sorry about that.

DanaC · 07-12-2007, 06:58 PM

You're making sense. If the 'urge' has passed, then hopefully the depression will too. *smiles*

07-12-2007, 07:16 PM

Here's hoping.
Pretending for my wife and son feels like swimming through concrete.

Griff · 07-12-2007, 08:04 PM

It sounds like a bad time, but you are holding up well here and I bet you're getting by at home as well.

xoxoxoBruce · 07-12-2007, 08:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by rkzenrage

snip~Have fun Bruce.

I will when you give me something to have fun with.
Your medical condition is no more fun for me than it is for you.

Pico and ME · 01-02-2017, 06:09 PM

Pretending and putting up a front is exhausting. But i really feel like i have no other choice. The last thing I want to do is hurt others, to burden them. Knowing that they know that I will be leaving them is the most sorrowful part of this cancer thing. I have already decided that once my quality of life deteriates too much, I will end it. So that means, deciding to make that decision a few steps early while I am still able to do it.

Sorry for this morbidness.

xoxoxoBruce · 01-02-2017, 06:16 PM

Deciding how you're going to handle your life, and other people, says you've already determined the outcome. Isn't that a little premature, and creating a self fulfilling prophecy?

Pico and ME · 01-02-2017, 07:19 PM

Yeah, but my thoughts are running the gamut, in and out, over and under. I'm viewing all sides. I just know I don't want to suffer needlessy. Its the control freak in me.

07-06-2007, 03:17 PM	#17
limey Encroaching on your decrees Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: An island within the south-west coast of Scotland Posts: 7,016	I'd like to second what bani said about suicide - it's awful to think that the help you offered wasn't enough. __________________ Living it up on the edge ... of civilisation, within the southwest coast of

07-07-2007, 07:24 PM	#18
BrianR Cleverly disguised as a responsible adult Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Dallas, TX Posts: 3,338	Not all suicide is bad I have attended three suicides to date. All have been close friends. I held the hand of one all the way. Two had cancers, one had AIDS. All were within days of a natural death (debatable). All went quietly and peacefully, in the presence of family and friends. If I get a choice, THAT is how I want to go. Nothing left unsaid, goodbyes tendered ETC. It's the wrist-slashing, hanging by a lamp cord, shotgun in the mouth kind that give me Willies! Brian __________________ Never be afraid to tell the world who you are. -- Anonymous

07-11-2007, 08:33 AM	#21
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	Your pain hasn't stolen "you" from us. You still give us laughs and points to ponder and insight into things we may never have dealt with. Being purely selfish myself, I'd request that you stick around for a long, long time. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

07-12-2007, 08:04 PM	#26
Griff still says videotape Join Date: Feb 2001 Posts: 26,813	It sounds like a bad time, but you are holding up well here and I bet you're getting by at home as well. __________________ If you would only recognize that life is hard, things would be so much easier for you. - Louis D. Brandeis

01-02-2017, 06:09 PM	#28
Pico and ME Are you knock-kneed? Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Middle Hoosierland Posts: 3,549	Pretending and putting up a front is exhausting. But i really feel like i have no other choice. The last thing I want to do is hurt others, to burden them. Knowing that they know that I will be leaving them is the most sorrowful part of this cancer thing. I have already decided that once my quality of life deteriates too much, I will end it. So that means, deciding to make that decision a few steps early while I am still able to do it. Sorry for this morbidness. __________________ Jesse LaGreca in 2012 “Seven Deadly Sins: Wealth without work, Pleasure without conscience, Science without humanity, Knowledge without character, Politics without principle, Commerce without morality, Worship without sacrifice.” – Mahatma Gandhi

07-05-2007, 01:56 PM	#16
rkzenrage Guest Posts: n/a	Not hollow at all, it helps to get it out. More than you can know. Thank you for your kind word and just being there.

07-09-2007, 12:31 PM	#19
Cicero Looking forward to open mic night. Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: New Mexico Posts: 5,148	RK- I understand you are in a lot of pain at times...... My fiance was in a lot of pain once and killed himself while I was at work. See how that sounds? Please remember to be patient and to keep looking for a different method. Suicide only compounds problems and pain- this is one thing I can be sure of. Keep fighting. Besides-you seem like you still have a lot of spirit and fight left in you. (as evidenced by the mohawk poll) Well there's "too much information" for you- but hopefully it's useful to someone out there.

07-10-2007, 05:58 PM	#20
rkzenrage Guest Posts: n/a	It's not just the pain, it feels like the pain is stealing "me".

07-11-2007, 08:19 PM	#22
yesman065 Banned - Self Imposed Join Date: Dec 2005 Posts: 1,847	We've had our disagreements rk, but I have always enjoyed your perspective and you have expanded my outlook on many issues - you have a unique ability to share a perspective that very very few of us would otherwise have. You have experiences and knowledge that would otherwise be lost. That is a great gift my friend - please keep on giving.

07-12-2007, 06:55 PM	#23
rkzenrage Guest Posts: n/a	Last few days the "urge" seems to have passed. Oddly, I feel a lot more depressed. It is really strange now, all the colors of the world seem, somehow, dim. I feel like I'm slipping into a hole. I know I'm not making sense, I'm sorry about that.

07-12-2007, 06:58 PM	#24
DanaC We have to go back, Kate! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Yorkshire Posts: 25,964	You're making sense. If the 'urge' has passed, then hopefully the depression will too. smiles

07-12-2007, 07:16 PM	#25
rkzenrage Guest Posts: n/a	Here's hoping. Pretending for my wife and son feels like swimming through concrete.

01-02-2017, 06:16 PM	#29
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	Deciding how you're going to handle your life, and other people, says you've already determined the outcome. Isn't that a little premature, and creating a self fulfilling prophecy? __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

01-02-2017, 07:19 PM	#30
Pico and ME Are you knock-kneed? Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Middle Hoosierland Posts: 3,549	Yeah, but my thoughts are running the gamut, in and out, over and under. I'm viewing all sides. I just know I don't want to suffer needlessy. Its the control freak in me. __________________ Jesse LaGreca in 2012 “Seven Deadly Sins: Wealth without work, Pleasure without conscience, Science without humanity, Knowledge without character, Politics without principle, Commerce without morality, Worship without sacrifice.” – Mahatma Gandhi

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