Having been cheated on (physically) by my "soon-to-be-ex" I believe that the pain caused by the physical is directly related to the mental. It crushed me and all I worked so hard for. I thought that she appreciated me for working multiple jobs so that she could stay home and be with the kids and thats how I was betrayed! Thats the word - betrayal. I think the key here was that she basically betrayed me and when she was the only person that I could count on 100% once thats gone - its VERY difficult to get back.
I never looked at her the same and I strongly feel that is the main reasoon we split up. Even though it took years for it to happen, I tried for a long time to get passed it, but was unable. Maybe I'm not as good a man as I thought. I dunno.
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