I Just Can't Stand It

[Nirvana]

I'm pretty good at reading into things...like silences

Sometimes silence is just silence..

Bri in her last 2 weeks sent me private messages and they were mostly upbeat. It was her public posts that let me know she was in trouble. I shared this fear with another dweller. She was not in control of her life, how could anyone who was not right there 24/7 control it for her?

I have had a few friends that are not in control of their life, one who spent 12 years "riding the dragon". 8 months forced jail kicked that habit but I see by her posts on FB she is doing other drugs now. I can't help her she would probably steal my purse. She has before.

Guilt is a self inflicted feeling. Maybe I know too many people that have taken their own life. Those poor dear souls that could not face another day and nothing anyone could do would make the ending different.