What is pissing you off this time?

[monster]

It just gets worse. we are doing the FAFSAs and the motherfuckers are double dipping from what i can tell. They are taking my income to be our joint income from last year (he made at least 75% of out income) and then are counting assets from this year which include the life insurance to replace that income/cushion the transition. Why can I not catch a fucking break? Don't you think losing your life partner would be enough? I have absolutely no fucking wiggle room to pay any tuition. I earn pin money. I need to get a better job, a real job but I'm struggling to keep all the plates spinning as it is Even filing the claim on my insurance to be reimbursed for money I have already paid out and desperately need seems too hard, even though it's not. And yes, I'm depressed. Who wouldn't be. knowing it is sadly not a miracle cure and there's no checkbox on the FAFSA for parent too fucking miserable to participate and protect family.

I don't even think the amount I have in "investments" is enough to pay full tuition for both of them for the 6 years they have remaining between them, never mind their living expenses and books -they're both engineers. What am I supposed to do to survive? I'm 48 years old and didn't work for 17 years. I'm just at the beginning of my "career", even though I'm closer to retirement age than college age. This country is amazing sometimes, but other times it just fucking sucks.