11/6 Extra: Blind Runner

nope.

i started to. and the lawyer thought we had a pretty good chance at getting a sizeable settlement. but i wanted to get on with my life.

i spent so much time in the hospital or with doctors my freshman year in high school. failed a class or two 'cause i was out so frequently. got d's & c's in the rest. by the fourth quarter, i managed to have like 5 a's and 2 b's. i was tired of dealing with the eye thing. just wanted to forget about and move on. wanted to have as normal a life as possible. had my dad call the lawyer up and tell him that we were dropping the case. purposefully let the statute of limitations run out.

glad i did. besides the fact that it hurts like fuck every once in a while, is overly sensitive and draws attention (and makes me look abnormal, as it's now smaller than my left eye), i don't notice it that much. i have noticed that my body has compensated by making my other senses much more... uh, sensitive. i hear better. i see better out of my left eye (20/10 vision - that's the lowest the doc's chart goes, ya know), i smell better... depth perception is different - you learn to tell by relative size and shadows. the world looks a bit different, but your brain compensates.

my dad asked me if i would have rather lost a hand or an eye. "definitely the eye" i said. losing a hand would have ruined my quake playing ability well, it would have made it damn near impossible for me to be as proficient as i am with a keyboard. and computers are my passion. i can still see really well. so. all things considered, it could have been worse. but i have to be overprotective of my left eye. i'm down to just 1 now... can't afford to lose it.