Storm-on life, love, pain and angst

[Stormieweather]

New Beginnings


You swore till death do us part
but you ripped out my heart
left me in a crumpled heap
with only my tears to keep

when does the heartbreak end??
how can my mind comprehend
when will it stop feeling like a dream
full of silent, neverending screams

lifting my eyes up to the sky
asking the stars to help me deny
stumbling through the pain
just so much acid in my veins

tasting the liquid salt on my lips
on my broken dreams I slip
raging and flailing at fate
her wicked wiles I berate

oh why me? I rage
you must learn to turn the page
she softly whispers in my ear
new beginnings always start with tears


Stormy
07/08/2003

[Stormieweather]

How it feels

Sparks.......heating, flying, igniting

I find your voice is like whispers down my spine

I shiver

Thoughts.........exploding, spreading, igniting

I watch your face in fascination

I gasp

Touches..........teasing, tantalizing, tormenting

I close my eyes in anticipation

I moan

Sensations...wanting, needing, seeking

I reach out to feel your love

I sigh

Hearts......pounding, pulsating, beating as one

I desire to explore every inch

I bite my lip

Tension,....mine, yours, and ours (the unknown)

I slide a fingers down your torso

I grit my teeth

Exploration....mouth, body, mind

I havent enough time for it all

I crave

Desires...holding, kissing, enfolding

I want to give and feel it all

I submit

Love...hearts afire, dreams galore, thoughts in sync

It is all right in front of me

I grasp

Night....soft sleep, cuddles, warm breath

I wrap myself around you

I sleep

Tomorrow...unknown, terrifying, exciting

I want to know what it holds

I dream


Stormy

02/03/03

[Stormieweather]

Every so often, something reminds me
Of the searing loss of innocence
The shadow of hopeless despair
Touches my soul as the music plays

Every so often, I catch a glimpse
Of unfettered freedom and possibilities
My feet dance for a moment before
Reality anchors them to the cold gray earth

Every so often, I hear a familiar voice
As faint words echo across my mind
But the warm caress of whispers
Fade to an indistinct memory

Every so often, I feel young and pretty
Untouched by the ravages of age and pain
The fragile illusion disintegrates
As truth mocks me raucously

Every so often, time stands still
Balanced on the thin silver line
Between what was and what will be
Suspended for a fraction of a moment


09/14/09

[Pico and ME]

Nice Stormie.

You reminded me how much I miss that momentary feeling I sometimes used to get when I was younger...just out of the blue...how something great was going to happen to me. It was never defined, but I would be all lit up inside and hopeful because of it. I wish it would come back.

[Stormieweather]

Thanks. I do remember those moments...when life was exciting and the future limitless. They passed so quickly! The majority of it is behind me...and that makes me sad. I spent entirely too much time thinking...I'll do that eventually, I'll get to it, I can't afford it now, maybe someday....and someday has boiled down to now or never.

Do it now or forever live with the regrets.