Please indulge me...

[Pico and ME]

I'm so sorry this has been such a long haul for you. I hope you can find some ways to feel less burdened. Be fucking as selfish as you can be and try not to worry about anyone else, but you. You are always worth it because you are your own best friend.

Actually, I think what people mean by saying 'get over it' is really 'don't dwell on it', something I have recently learned the long, hard way. I got divorced - he decided that I wasn't worth anything to him anymore, too. It took me MONTHS and MONTHS of just feeling totally deflated, numb and non-personish, before I started turning the corner. I'm pretty much all alone too, not really anyone to talk it all out seriously with. So I learned to stop dwelling on it. As soon as a thought came to mind, I turned it off. I refused to let it blossom into a full-fledged pity party (well, mostly). I became very selfishly self-indulgent. I do what I can to put a little joy in my life...mostly watch tv shows and movies, kill (lots) time on the computer, and catch up on my reading. It works for me. I have Turbo and Pico and work associates to keep me from feeling lonely. And I have really curtailed what used to be my high expectations for my life...at least for now.

I hope you can stay focused on the good things, no matter how little they are.

Btw, do you suffer pain a lot? I do, I have fibromyalgia. I take tramadol generic. It works great and is a is also a mood lifter. Maybe look into it? with discount card it shouldn't be expensive.